September 3, 2013

Release…

It’s hard to find something that can aid in the release of all the built up stress in my life and in my thoughts. But, when I can find something…I’m going to hold onto it. So far there’s only been 2 things that can fully do that for me. One is music. Music provides so much therapy for the soul, it’s almost unbelievable. When I feel like I can’t take anymore, I’ll turn on some music, and it acts as an escape from the world I live in. It’s not that this world is bad, but I can’t take the reality of things sometimes. I also notice that I get in these depressive states sometimes and it fuckin’ sucks. Haha. I mean, nothing can bring me out…sometimes not even music. But what I think sucks the most, is having to hide the depression. Hiding it so know one babies me or tries to add their opinions into “curing me”. Depression is real, and I get that. But it sucks when you feel isolated by people trying to lend a hand and bring you out of it. It’s not always that I feel this way, but often enough to realize I have a problem. But, I don’t have medical insurance to visit a Psychiatrist so he can “evaluate” me and place me on some man made medication that is supposed to cure me. I’d rather light up and just laugh it off. That’s my 2nd kind of release. Nothing is better than inhaling my medicine so that I can exhale all of the bullshit around me and just enjoy life. It’s hard going through life without an escape. If I didn’t have at least music, I don’t know where I’d be. And that’s the truth. One artist that has truly shaped my present mindset is Mac Miller. No joke, his new album is just…I don’t even know how to explain it, but I’ll save the attempt for another post, haha, Anyway, just had to vent. 

May 15, 2012

I need a friend…

I need a friend who I can trust to be there for me if ever I need them. I need a friend who will be a little kid with me. Someone who will watch disney with me and color with me. Someone who understands I’m not perect and remains my friend through the ups and the downs. I need a friend who will listen to me when I truly need to vent. I really need someone to be adorkable with me and always be here. So, if you are prepared to take on all these tasks, please tell me. I’m growing weary of false friends.

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April 26, 2012

Yeahh..

On tumblr, when I should be listening to my professor in class. Oh well. :3

April 24, 2012   75 notes
lawdy…

lawdy…

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April 24, 2012

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youlovemedontyoujacob:

O.O so. damn. cute.

I will have a pet pig one day.

youlovemedontyoujacob:

O.O so. damn. cute.

I will have a pet pig one day.

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April 20, 2012   47 notes
mmafanmade:

‘Felice the Riveter’
MMA’s resident badass, Felice Herrig.
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mmafanmade:

Felice the Riveter

MMA’s resident badass, Felice Herrig.

Photoshoot by: Equal Fights MMA

April 19, 2012   11 notes
Reppin&#8217; Hawkeye All day err&#8217; day. Ha. Can&#8217;t wait to see this movie. 

Reppin’ Hawkeye All day err’ day. Ha. Can’t wait to see this movie. 

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